Posts Tagged ‘collaboration’

Glimpsing Center, Again.

Monday, August 4th, 2008

This job this summer has tried me in almost every possible way: long hours, big disappointments, lack of control over the final product, difficult people, and self doubt. I constantly feel inadequate and like I am a disappointment to my employer archi-treasures. I don’t sleep well, I am constantly worried.

My meditation practice has lapsed for up to a couple days at a time and my alcohol consumption has increased in a predictably stressful and summer way. These two things are not good for me.

But today I had a glimpse of the center I once knew.

“I can only do this job as well as I can. Any body’s disappointment or agendas belong to them not me.”

Waiting

Wednesday, July 23rd, 2008


We are waiting for the 20th ward Alderman to move and sand blast the planters. We are ready to paint. I am discouraged, and starting to thing about some plan-B’s. The teens really want to paint. Above is the front and back designs for the planters and the colors we’ll use. I’m starting to think about sidewalk sandwich boards, other types of signage or community markers. I really want to make something, and make something happen. I’m not getting paid enough not to make art.

Here is our practice one…

Summer Work

Thursday, July 10th, 2008


This summer I am working on this incredible community based public art project in Woodlawn.

I was hired through a not-for-profit group that facilitates community art projects, gardens, and other community space, archi-treasures as the artist for this project. I am working with 15 very bright teens. They challenge me in every way, everyday. I am learning so much about myself, and my teaching practice through them. I am also learning about them and their community.

I’ve been enjoying my commute to Woodlawn once I get on south Lake Shore Drive. It is really beautiful. I pass by The Republic everyday. She is wonderful.

Our project is very complex, and has many moving parts, and I would not be able to keep up with all of them with out the help of Dorothy Pytel, who is the “instigator” of this whole project, and is very organized. And also Sherry Shannon, who helps with the day to day order.

Our task is to move, decorate, and plant up to 30 large concrete planters. That sounds simple, but its not. The most challenging part is that the planters must be “adopted” by a community group or business to ensure the continued up keep of the planter. Once this project is completed the planters will serve as community markers, and will unify active members of the community together.

We are moving along and finally making much head way this week. We designed the Woodlawn logo which will be stenciled on all the planters.


We are also making much needed head way in community out reach and in designing the planters. This project has a blog: http://woodlawnyouth.blogspot.com/ Please follow along.

Everyday at work I feel totally overwhelmed, and when I get home I am exhausted, but optimistic. The biggest lesson, that I haven’t learned yet is how to deal with not pleasing everybody. Every small dissatisfaction of one of the teens, or someone else feels like big failure on my part.

Transformation

Friday, February 29th, 2008

Since the New Year, I have been making many positive changes to my life. But I think the source of all this change actually came not from my free will, but because I had to stop drinking to take Accutane. Its not as though drinking were some kind of issue, but when it was absent I noticed how much a filler it can be, much like the other things I’ve phased out

Reductions:

  • Not Drinking
  • Quiting TV
  • phasing out myspace
  • checking email less

Additions:

  • Revamping my studio
  • Working on exciting ideas for my new show
  • reading more
  • going to see more art, going to museums
  • collaborating with friends
  • Volunteering and taking classes at Shambhala
  • Re-committing to my daily meditation practice and trying to work with lojong
  • Keeping this blog and my accutane blog

Without the time filler activities, I’ve been able to add in so many more positive activities. One down side is that the Accutane makes me feel like a lethargic arthritic old lady, so I haven’t been exercising at all, and it is driving me crazy. I am looking forward to May, when my skin transformation is complete, the accutane is over, and I can maintain my new life style, but with energy.

Tub Practice

Wednesday, January 30th, 2008

So as I mentioned, I was going to practice for the tub shoot this weekend, but there were some problems, and now I need to borrow someone else’s tub.

Problem one was that the pilot in the hot water heater went out. It took a while to figure out why the water was luke, and then to light it. I then waited a couple hours for it to heat up.

After filling up the tub and getting in I was practicing submerging and I realized I would need some kind of plug in my nose because water was getting up it and I thought it would be worse with milk. I went to Michael’s studio to look for ear plugs to see if those would work without deforming my nostrils, when there was a knock at the door.

I wanted to ignore it because I was in a towel, but then another knock. And I thought for some reason it could be about the tub full of water. And it was! They guy down stairs said water was coming through his light fixture in his bathroom! I quickly got dressed and went down to his unit to see the globe of his light fixture full of water! I helped him take it down so it could dry out and it seems that there will be no damage to his unit. But I guess the overflow in my tub is not connected to the drain! Thank god that wasn’t milk dripping down to his apartment!

So now I need to use a deeper tub or a tub with a functioning overflow. I will have to call my friends….

Sunday, December 16th, 2007

Red dress set at my studio.